i will possess your heart.

feeling a little pressured by eating and such like recently. I know anorexia is a disease, but sometimes i find so much comfort in it. This isn't really relevant to this blog, but i blog to express, not impress, so i suppose it doesn't really matter. I've graduated high school now, so when i'm not working, i don't have my study to concentrate on and i spend alot of time focusing on my health and what i'm eating. i  never really understood what my problem was with eating and fashion and everything, until i went and saw the 'Black Swan', in theatres. I realised that like she was, i was striving for perfection. I want to be perfect. That includes alot of things from hair, to clothes, to etiquette etc. Being a tiny weight and being in control of my body and the food and calories i choose to consume has just become a part of that. I don't know how i feel about everything at the minute, all i know is i need to find some way to let it all out. So here it is.